Reg.: Sep 2002
Location: the place you wouldnt expect
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Drugs and life...

Ok, this might look like some odd fuckin thread...but today...it was weird! I got drunk like most of the times and what I felt when I drove home was...I dont know...it was like a feeling of not being able to actually stand life as it is right now without drugs...and I dont mean hardcore drugs but socially accepted drugs like alcohol...
Not that everyone gets afraid of me committing suicide (which would be my problem anyways) but it was weird...everyone I saw in the subway just seemed fucked off the life that they seemed to live right now. I just met a (previously) friend (he was or still is a skinhead...I actually hoped I could get him out of that rejectful retarded way of living but fuck...life just doesnt play along) and he was totally fucked up...I have no idea what he dropped rolled or what the fuck ever...it seems that every friend I had changed into some nazi fuck or some fucking drug addict....why? And that night I just thought that life wouldnt be really acceptable without the eyes of an drug infested kid. Either you do drugs or you are too fucking stupid to actually witness things as they are right now. The funny (or in my oppinion more depressing) thing is that really nothing can be changed right now. People will stay this way until certain problems will be solved...but...we are (as to say) too deep in it to be really able to change anything...there wont be a possibillity to change anything cause everything is already running to the capitalistic system which no one can change (or would be able to). The reason why I think that is because we are already used to this kinda standard of living...
I dont know...just another philosophical question right now...which in my oppinion is always interesting...what do you guys think about it?

(maybe I am just too drunk to actually realize reality right now...but I am really dissatisfied how things are going right now...did anyone else get that feeling too or am I the only one...I dont kow...I guess the feeling of dissatisfaction was today just amazingly big)

PS: I really dont want anyone to fucking tell me that I am doing too many drugs right now cause that just aint true...if you would know me, you'd know that I am not! I am just another human being trying to understand life a bit better than I am right now...if you want you can see this thread as another "lighten me up" thread but do with it whatever you want...
Another thing: If there will be a question about this tomorrow I probably wont be able to answer it cause I just wont feel the same way as I did today...but lets try our best

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Reg.: Jul 2001
Location: London SE / (but from Vienna NE)
Posts: 522

As far as i think...

..this feeling is common within people, especialy of our generation. I know it myself and most people i know also know it. The Problem is: the "understanding it"-solution of knowledge does not really apply anymore for most of us, because it requires certain rules within our life/knowledge structure, but those rules, -actually the whole structures- fail to stand as role models which we again could apply to our own lifes. In example: years ago the son of a craftsman was told to be a craftsman in his future life. He actually knew the framework of his destiny already, and if he failed, he could blame his failure for all his future downs, or blame it on the fact, that he maybe did not go to church weekly or whatever. But there was certain rules which in a certain context were "blameable". (this was not really the best example ).

But nowadays we know, many of us know, that many of those rules were mere imaginations. The freedom to decide is what makes us "junkies of the cause". The older generation tryed really hard i think, some this way, some the other, but most of them just don´t seem too happy, or if they are we might see them as "reality-blind". So what way to go? Go for pleasure of course, that is the basic sensation to strife for - strife for? But is this correct? I am not sure, because it should actually be different, as far as i perceive. The pleasure should be a certain feeling AFTER a certain movement or during a certain movement. But lately we dont really need to move for pleasure, so if we are left to move, we want to move to the direction of pleasure, but we dont really know which way that is. Except for drugs maybe, because we have expirienced pleasure at that point in the past. But i am not sure, if someone can survive without moving into a certain direction.

anyway, at the end it´s just , nobody to blame, nobody to beat, nothing to wait for, all i can say, movement is what can free somebody who is in the state that "euphoric anger" described, and fear of movement (fear of being hurt or not in pleasure) is what puts somebody in that state.


wuw....allright, that was a long one,
GrSplf

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Reg.: Jun 2001
Location: Gaussplatz Carneval
Posts: 531

Tristesse is overtaking....

when I think about my current situation....

...2 have the....

huge privilege

...to live in one of the richest and wealthiest countries in the world
...to chose my own profession, my own future & my own life
...to be at least in a political, social and an economical way much better off than 5.9 trillion or how many % of all people worldwide?
...to have the possibility 2 travel almost whereever I want 2
...............++++++++++++++++++++++++++.......................
@drugs. some people take mo, some less, some people drink mo, some less, some people eat mo meat, some are vegetarians, some like wintersports, some do not, some like soccer, some dont, some are interested in politics or economics, some not, some like whiskey, some not, etcetcetc.
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try 2 be happier and a little bit more positive . it does not hurt!
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Reg.: Dec 2001
Location: Secret Tweaker Pad
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quote:

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...some people take mo, some less, some people drink mo, some less, some people eat mo meat, some are vegetarians, some like wintersports...

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Reg.: Mar 2002
Location: Wien-Berlin Achse
Posts: 105

Re: Tristesse is overtaking....

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Originally posted by ChristophL

try 2 be happier and a little bit more positive . it does not hurt!

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took tha words right out of my mouth!

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Reg.: Jul 2001
Location: London SE / (but from Vienna NE)
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Originally posted by cpt. ahab

EVERYBODY DIES

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Reg.: Dec 2001
Location: Secret Tweaker Pad
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now that is bull**** and will end in a big come-down.

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Reg.: Feb 2002
Location: somewhere in da high mountainz of da Leithagebirge
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Originally posted by Spliffinger
"positive thinking" thing

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whatta nice word

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